even though this week went by fast, thank god its fkning over! seriously this week sucked! i'm boyfriendless, stressful, and just tired! seriously, this week was very gloomy for me. i broke up with my boyfriend monday, had to deal with his heart broken ventilation tuesday, got yelled at wednesday, and today celebrated Dari's birthday, embarrassed myself in front of that mcdonalds dude, and had to deal with tony some more. people break up all the time. why is this time so different? it's cause usually the person who got broken up with stops talking to the breaker of hearts to heal some. this usually is the time the heart broken person buys ubs of ice cream and cries at night to a best friend about how hurt they are. but not us, no, we are each others best friend. well at least i'm his. i have others, but right now i feel like i'm the only one he has. and i am. and i feel so bad because he's centered his life around me, and now i'm not there anymore. but thats not fair to me. i never asked to be his center of attention. in fact, on numerous occassions i asked him to stop so if this very situation were to happen, he wouldn't be alone. and now he is; and i have to listen. and feel more like shit. but i'm so tired and i have no idea what to do because the usual words of comfort no longer apply because hey, i'm the best friend AND the dumper. jeez. i hate life. i'ts so damn complicated. so tomorrow ends the week of drama, with a shoutout to all things black and starting at 7:30am. what joy. why oh why did i have to show off and join in extra curricular activities?! why?! lol AND i have to start my weekend off early at 8:00am because i just fucking LOVE BAND. ugh...i hate this week!!!! so i'm officially not going to get sleep, and just ughh!!! i'm so pissed!!! hahaha and tired!!!! and ugh!!!!!!! lol jeezuz! :/ and i finally posted up a comment for de leon so he better not fucking hate me. right now i'm going to draw some pictures, take a shower, sleep, probably think of nice old times, cry, then get angry, regret crying, sleep, and there's friday! well, at least i survived it, and i will never have to relive it again like that guy in that christmas movie on abc family or whatever. ok well i'm gone. night!
peace!
-candice*
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if it makes u feel better i went throught the same thing??
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cheer up kid, life goes on ;)
i love you:)
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